Monday, January 13, 2014

BROKEN FEELINGS

She watched him as he was sweating and dancing between two slutty girls, one of the girls was in a pair of shorts that could pass for panties and the other one was in a gown that clung to her body accentuating all her curves, she suppressed the impulse to pull him from between them, she wanted to slap him on the face just to make sure he felt as much pain as she felt, her stomach was in a tight knot, her chest was on fire. The DJ changed the song to Wizkid’s ‘Pakurumo’ and she burnt with jealousy as one of the slutty girls started rubbing her ass all over his ‘thing’, she thought to herself, “this has to stop”. She ran into the bathroom to practice the breathing exercise Nife taught her, ‘inhale’ ‘exhale’, ‘inhale’ ‘exhale’. She felt slightly relieved, then, she splashed water on her face, the cold water gave her an additional soothing feeling. She prepared to go back to the dancehall, to face the devil she was running from - her emotions, she has nursed a crush for Diran Oladapo since they were kids and twenty years after, it feels like the crush was going nowhere. 

He saw her sitting at the bar, nursing her drink, her head dropped halfway on her chest like she was in deep thoughts, he wondered what was going on in her mind, he knew she was going to share with him, their friendship was that good they always had each other’s back, they are young adults now but it still feels like all those days when they ran around the compound in their undies, “how time flies” he thought. She was dressed in a low neck black gown, low enough for a little of her fair cleavage to be seen but lots was still covered to keep one wondering what the remaining looked like, the black gown looks good on her fair skin. 

Toyosi adeniran has been his friend since they were in pre nursery class, she was like one of his buddies because they always played ball together and wrestled each other to know who was stronger, she was a tomboy back in those days and seeing her transform into the lady she is still marvels him. He was dancing and walking towards her stepping to J-Martins’ Good or Bad, she had refused to dance so he was caught in the company of club whores, “thank God I am out now” he thought to himself. It’s been a long time since the last time they met and although they communicated all the time, he sure did miss having her around. There is a lot he wanted to tell her, he didn’t want to tell her over the phone ‘cause he wanted to see the expression on her face and watch her eyes sparkle as they do whenever she is excited. 

She can perceive him now, she knew he was near, the sweat wasn’t enough to mask the scent of his cologne, he always used Kenneth Cole’s Black since they were teenagers and that has become his signature scent. Her head was still bent over her drink, she didn’t want to face him now, whatever strength she got from the bathroom was exhausted and she was back under the dictate of her emotions. “How could he not know she was in love with him?” All those long calls and “I love yous”, “Does he think that was done just for friendship?” No one knows her like he does, didn’t he wonder why she never dated any of her ‘toasters’, she has every right to be mad at him, he made her fall for him and he has the right to act like he can’t see the pain he is putting her through?. Tonight is going to end it all, she made up her mind to chew and swallow her pride and tell Adediran she had always and is still in love with him. 

He pulled the highstool next to hers and sat down, he wanted to chase her around the bar and make her forget whatever was weighing her down like he used to do when they were little, they are grownups now, and so he will handle it the grown up way. 

“T-babe, what’s wrong”, he asked as he lifted her face to meet his. 

His touch made her quiver; she looked in his eyes and saw that concerned look she is all so used to, his lips look like a dull orange ‘cause of the club lightings, she wanted so much to kiss them. 

“T-Babe”, she heard him call again as he shook her lightly. 

“Why are you looking at me like that? Is there something you would like to share?” 

“I am sorry, it is nothing, just thinking about work,” she replied smiling sadly. As always, her guts had failed her and he will never know how in love with him she is. 

He searched her face, trying to be sure, nothing was really wrong; satisfying his curiosity, he accepted it was one of her moodswings. He wondered if it was the right time to tell her, “no time is the right time so I might as well tell her now”, he thought. 

“There is something I need to tell you”, he said, taking her hands in his as he shifted lightly on his stool, her heart was pounding so hard, she was scared it might tear her chest. 

He took a deep breath and had a look on his face that had never been there before. 

She thought to herself, “Does he feel that way too? How stupid have we been all these past years? Both of us feeling the same thing and not saying it?” she wanted to tell him, I feel it too but decided to hear him say it, happy that her pride as a lady will be saved. 

He finally spoke and said “I have found her”. 

A Friend's Courage!


In your eyes, reads the embrance for love, joy, happiness...
Has been replaced by Sorrow & pain from the past.
You worry for tommorow
Stagnant beckons
If you can’t live life for today.
The chance of a better tomorrow beclouds.

The rear view mirror is where you stare.
Not on the road ahead.
You don’t live a life of the living.
You live a life of the dead.
For the past is gone and won’t return.
Today is all you’ve got.

You need to live the life of the living
A life of joy, happiness and...
You seek the things you do not have.
But you really have a lot.
You are an hero, a leader, a mentor...
You'v got the streingth

There are so many of us who are crazy & cares about you
You truly are our world.
You'v’ sacrifice everything amist for us all
Your joy, happiness
You are our special Man.
An hero, a leader, a mentor...

Life’s got you down, but you’re not beaten.
You’re stronger than you think.
So take our love, our gift to you.
So that your heart won’t jerk.
For in you we see a friend
An hero, a leader, a mentor...

When you fall, you gather strength to rise again 
When you need a hand
I'll level my hand to carry you through
I'll share in your pain, sorrow, joy, happiness & success
I’ll carry you through this life.
I’ll take your pain and sorrow.
And all your ills and strife.

When you’re ready to walk again.
I’ll help you walk and hold your hand.
Remember, when You carried me when I fell.
You held me up until I was strong enough to stand.
Remember the Issues with Aro
Your words helped me gather courage to stand tall

So now my love, my time has come.
To stand tall for my best friend.
All the pain I know I’ll feel from you.
Will be worth it in the end.
When together we stand, we share
A friend's courage, i bore my hear

-Posh

xoxo da_diva ciao

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Friday, January 10, 2014

The Echoes Of Life



And there lays life vain promises
Our hopes lay
yearning patiently for the rays
Of sunlight to beckon
Our lives in the darkest phase
Held captive by the fate
For so long a time that there you wait
And our eyes have been blindfolded
Until the lid is lifted
We might never understand what we face
In life this race we run
Our Pursuit left to fate


Even though we understand the dance
We fail to pay attention to the lyrics that comes with the rhythm of the song
And soon we so lost in the rhymes
Confusion becomes the order of it all
Hope becomes what it seems to be
Yet determined on the road in an endless journey
In pursuit of total joy
Even when we have money
It never satisfies the heart
It never quietens the voice within us that cries
Against the vanity in our lives. 
The echoes of life
Is a road for the strong
Built in with determination and persistence

Until we see with our mind
We will continue to be blind
Till we learn the basics
Of living life with simplicity.

-Posh

xoxo da_diva

More Opportunities For The New Year

Song of the Day: Alright by Shiloh 


Hello all! I know it's been a while since my last upload... Been pretty busy lately with school work and meeting up with article deadlines. Hope we all adjusting to the new year, pretty sure some of us have made resolutions and promises for the year. Congratz if you have, and if you haven't, it's not late to start.

For me on my blog, I have been thinking of adding more content driven material to my blog. I'm aiming to help writers alike in any way I can. In an effort to do this, I will be posting opportunities, scholarships, contests to help young writers achieve their dreams where your work and writings can be known and publish. 

Also if you are a young writer, I will be most available to assist in proof reading your manuscripts. All you have to do is send me a mail: info.posche@gmail.com

Today I will share some: 

*Augury Books

Augury Books is currently looking for both full length poetry manuscripts and for short collections, and anticipate publishing at least one new title in each genre. Check out their website:



*On The Commons Magazine
                             http://onthecommons.org/magazine

Do give it a try... and feed me back if you need any clarity.

Also I will start publication of my short stories, titled "In the Mist of Life". It is a story about two affectionate lovers who fell in love unaware that they are actually step-siblings under the most unfair situation. The story delve into the so oo political and ethnic issues conversant in today African society- corruption, violence, ethnic strife and love. The main theme of the story will enter on how these daily happenings of life challenges affect ordinary life. I hope you find it as interesting as I am so excited to start. 

Stay tune to the first intro...Happy Reading!


xoxo... da_diva



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